Self

Last night I had a dual observation and experienced both sides of sex with myself.  I was on top of myself, as woman, and I was underneath me, as man.

The dream happened in bursts of movement and intense details.  Hard grinding, seen and felt by both perspectives.

I could feel myself penetrate, as well as feeling being penetrated, simultaneously.  I felt both sides of the same fleshed member and both sides of the inner flesh it entered. The aching length of a body part I normally only can try to imagine having, but it was as real as it could be, in in the place of my own familiar internal ache. And yet I felt that too…

The ache of the need to fill would fire and that would feed into the ache of the need to be filled. Building and building on itself.

Clear as day I saw myself above me, my movements and heaving body.  Then I would look down and see myself beneath me, neck tense, head slightly raised , arms stretched out to hold my waist as I let my womanhood take control of my manhood. I loved the way my thighs felt in my hands.

I was completely engulfed in the sensations, every part of me internal and external was overcome by this epic duality turned one.

It built and built until I could no longer tell the difference between the two perspectives, until they both synchronized in one massive pounding pulsation. A cyclical current that exploded outward from the deepest depths of my being like a star.  Both parts of my whole- smashed together in nova.  Bursting sucking pounding and being broken in all of its layers.

I could hear it.  Louder than I ever have.
Like I did when i was a child

I imagine now that one reason it had that same kind of plucking musical orgasm was because as a small child, I was sexless.  Without established gender. I was open and flowing within a unison of both sides of that universal coin. The masculine and feminine were not yet separated, neither denied or chosen.  Neither were inhibited by ideology of what either were supposed to be or not be.
As in this dream, I was whole. Complete. Free.